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The saddest thing is that even after deciding that I’ll work hard and get better marks this sem, I am back to being me – jobless! I scored decent marks in my first sessional test, but then I won’t be able to do well this time. Yeah my life has always been sad or maybe my outlook has always been like this. But, thats not at all the point. I should be studying for my lab test now and that’s why the ENV teacher isn’t teaching, but all of a sudden, I feel like posting something on my blog. Its been ages since I posted and I didn’t really care about it, then why is it so that at this moment I have to update my blog. Why is it so that at such critical situations I tend to get distracted (or rather chose to get distracted) so easily? why?

I don’t think anyone including me can answer my last question, so I won’t expect. Talking about life in manipal, it’s not at all the I wanted it to be…it never is! But I am happy wid the way things are going on now. I have become more mature as a person. I don not belong to a “class group” anymore as was the case earlier and I have started hanging around with my non-classmates and they are cool. I do miss being with a couple of my classmates but I cant help it coz I don’t know the reason why we stopped being a group. (someone didn’t like to be in a group!).

The current semester has been a little hectic for me coz I’ve joined too many clubs and sometimes worked for them too. Recently, I got into AIESEC Local Committee and I was very excited being among the 80 students selected out of 600 applicants. Now, I am amazed by the amount of work that people in this organisation do. Respect to all the AIESECers. I’ll learn a lot here if I am able to manage it well which I hope I will. Apart from this, I participated in a boat racing event. It was a nice experience; learnt a lot, though we didn’t win. Oh yeah, I was also a part of the Media Team for Revels, MIT’s cultural fest. The Media Team was the best team that I have ever worked in. Calling up newspapers and magazines, websites, TV channels, other college publications and persuading them to cover us and be our media partners was my job role before the event started. During the event I was a part of the reporting team for the Newsletter that was being circulated during the fest. I had fun writing articles. Overall, it was an awesome experience with the awesomest team.

Oh, the lecture is over and its lunch break now. I guess I’ll stop here and rather go for lunch since I am starving as I didn’t have breakfast. Further I also hope that I study something before the lab test so that I can score some non-zero marks…

Update: I did screw up my lab test but m scoring a bit more than zero!

And here comes an end to the worst year in my life till date. Starting with the bad preparations and then somewhat expected bad result; this year is yet another nightmare for me except for the fact that there were some moments I would cherish for the rest of my life. Yes, I liked my college initially and I had expected to have a lot of fun in the first sem. But things didn’t work out well with me for the rest of the year.

Talking about my studies, which is supposedly the primary intention of being in a college, is like singing the saddest song on earth. My academic performance, this year has consistently been poor (But I can’t boast for being consistent here!). I still remember the first class I attended here. A lovely morning ruined by the worst Physics lecturer in Manipal who also unluckily turned out our class coordinator. But this wasn’t my reaction at that moment. I didn’t have my choice of field when I joined MIT initially. So, the only option left to me was to get a GPA above 9 and so change my branch. Surprisingly, just after two days, my branch was upgraded to Computer Science, the one I wanted. So, getting a 9 GPA wasn’t a necessity for me anymore. Maybe, this was something that changed my attitude towards academics. I had been good throughout my school days and coaching classes also weren’t too bad (although they weren’t good at all). But now, things had changed. I was never a student who would study for 3-4 hours a day, but all I never took my subjects for granted, used to listen in the class, at least. Now, there were days when I didn’t even know what the topic being taught was (such days were very common). As expected my results were too bad in the sessionals as well as the end sems…don’t really wanna describe it…!

Next thing in the college was the social life. The people here were cool and a few are still cool. Yeah, things did change. When you are new to a place you think everything around you is so good and then suddenly, things start changing. Your opinions about various things change. Same is applicable here. Initially, you like being in a crowd and at a later stage, u start being with a limited number of people. I always hated crowd and so I had chosen my group. And slowly, the class, which was once a bunch of cool people, turned into a bunch of groups of lesser number of people. I used to hang out with my group most of the time. Life seemed easy until the exams arrived, or rather, until the results were out. Still, we had lots of fun. There were no vacations for Diwali, so we had to celebrate it there itself. It was one time that I missed my family the most. The festive spirit in me was completely absent this time. So, all I did was wander casually with my bunch of friends (who were, unlike me, very well dressed and excited) in and around the campus. It was initially very boring and extremely irritating. We didn’t even find a place to eat in any restaurant and ended up eating in a mess. Finally, after a tiring troll around the town and the campus, there was something to compensate a bit for the disappointment – a good game of the typical truth and dare…But it didn’t help and thus it was the worst Diwali of my life… L

Just 3-4 days later, I had my second sessionals starting. Moreover, it was my birthday. I was looking forward to my big day, but somehow it got ruined. I got screwed in the paper badly. No party on the day since everyone including me was busy studying. I did throw a party on 10^th Nov, 2 days after the day, for my close friends and the group. We chose a nice Italian restaurant and had lots of fun. And the walk after the dinner wid the best people in manipal was just awesome. At that point, I missed Avi n Vaibhav (my closest friends ever) badly! Overall, the b’day thing was quite good but I did feel something was fishy about it…..dunno why I was feeling so… As soon as I started feeling good about me and my life, the results were there to turn things upside down!

How did I manage to waste so much of time without studying or getting involved in any kind of sports? This is the question I ask myself the most. Well the answer is very obvious to me – I had a laptop! And yes that’s all. Actually, it’s more than enough. Apparently, our college had provided us laptops coz they felt it was necessary for our studies. It was, in fact…as we had loads of slides to refer to. But that used to take place like once in a blue moon. I was, and I am still addicted to Facebook, followed by sitcoms; ‘How I met Your Mother’ is my current favorite. Movies obviously were a thing at times, but it was usually sitcoms. Apart from these, Gaming did play its role. So spending time or rather, wasting time didn’t need much effort. I used to stay awake till 3 or 4 in the morning. Ordering Burgers and noodles in the middle of the night had become a routine for me and my roomie. The junk food did help a lot in increasing the size of my ‘already oversized belly’.  Now I realize, all these days I didn’t do a single thing that is productive enough to count as a step towards achieving the target I had set for me earlier. This is actually the saddest part of my sad story.

“It’s never too early, never too late…

Now, is the time that’ll decide your fate.”

Whatever done is done. I can’t change anything now, but accept the fact that it’s over. Last year also, just as the year was about to end I was into self-introspection. I welcomed the New Year with new enthusiasm, eyes gleaming with dreams and filled with hope. I thought I would make the best out of it. Sadly, it didn’t turn out what I expected. This new year too, I am doing the same. Inculcating hopes and dreams inside me and trying to learn from my mistakes. I can’t change the past, but as I quoted earlier, I can make my future better by acting now; it’s never too early n never too late if you start now! So, I would like to end up promising myself to work hard and hope for the best. And that’s all one can do…coz Life goes on…

This is my first blog since the third last day of the last year. And the first from my new college.

Well, Life has become quite exciting and enjoyable here. Suddenly the downs are graphing their minimum somewhere positive. Unlike Kota, there are people who don’t want to be ”nerds”, people who want to socialize, who wish to make friends, who don’t compete with you every minute. But, as in Kota, there are students from different corners of the country, that is a good part though. The campus here, is one of the best in the country, no matter what other so-called surveys say. Infrastructure at its best, serious teaching, lots of extra-curricular activities to get busy with, enthusiastic and smart crowd, lots of new friends, edible food and of course, some hot chicks – what more do you expect from a college? For me, a little leniency in correction and awarding grades should make it enough. We shall come to know about it later in a week or so.

Two of my hometown friends are here. Plus many known faces(thanks to Kota), names unknown. My section mates are pretty cool, though I can’t stand a few, so making new friends has been quite easy. Everyone is enthusiastic and helpful too. It’s a great fun being with them. We even planned a class party, but it somehow got cancelled. Anyways we will be having it sometime later this year. So, friends are the real essence of college life. Without them it is like a sweets without sugar (that was a bad comparison…). And I want to have the sweetness throughout my life. For all my Friends – You all are gr8.

Talking about ragging, it’s actually absent here. But, there are a few freshers who act as seniors and make newcomers do some funny stuffs. I was their prey once. They got me. I also know some seniors here and they tell us more about the college and the campus and are also the source of slides and other study materials. Its been more than 1 month for me here, and I really didn’t have any track of the time passing. The fact is, ”when you enjoy things, you really don’t have any track of time. And when you hate something, it seems stretching more and more”. Oh! So, this is the reason B.E. lectures seem to e so long (I’ll get over it, soon). Further, the college tech-fest “techtatva” is approaching. So, I am expecting lots of fun and it’ll be really big…

So, it might be quite clear that I am enjoying each and every moment of my new life (except the B.E. torture cells), though I miss my hometown a lot. And I  am looking forward to the four (hopefully)”memorable” years that I will be spending here.

Well, it all started in June 2008, when I came to Kota from Mumbai, my hometown. I had come here to prepare myself for the national rat race,ie IIT-JEE. I chose bansal Classes as my coaching institute. Living away from home, I had lots of new experiences. I found out how selfish people can be,  how mean they can act at times, how they can make use of u when they need, how wrong choice of friends affects u, how being away from your parents, your caretakers, your loved ones can change u, how to deal with situations that tend to get more complicated the more u think about it.

I was a normal guy with simple friends. I didn’t knew how to play with someone’s feelings, didn’t knew how to deal in such conditions, how to stay away from all these in spite of  being very close. I didnt knew all this. But life had thought of teaching me something new and it did. I have been through all the above situations during these one and a half years. But now, I m really fed up. i have screwed up my most crucial years in things that seem to matter but doesn’t really matter. I have screwed up my studies, trying to make more n more so-called friends – who don’t even care to wish u a happy birthday, who just want to enjoy with you in good times and dont even care to say take care when u need. Hugh…..And now I have stopped expecting too…because it hurts…expecting hurts…everyone cant be like you…everyone cant be good enough…everyone cant drop selfishness….

These things have changed me to a lot of extent. I have stopped understanding myself…people dont understand me either…i dont know where it ll take me…but one thing that I am sure about… this is the end… m not gonna continue the same way…m going back to being me…gonna drop unproductive things and useless webs that have surrounded me and are making my life uglier than hell….

So this is it…………m waiting for a new beginning, a new start line from where the finish point seems more farther and the road much tougher, but where I ll find myself more powerful, more active and finally more successful………..

A warm welcome to the beginning……..

Education is useless without curiosity. In fact, education is impossible without curiosity. If one doesn’t has the passion to learn a certain subject, how the hell can he pursue a career opting that subject. So we should just ask to ourselves what we want to do, what we are really good at, what we really enjoy doing…and a decision made so can never be wrong.

Another important point highlighted in the movie is the education system of the country wherein instead of judging a child’s talent, his memorizing power is judged. Sharp memory is no doubt a sign of a swift brain , but never a sign of talent and excellence. The education system really needs a reform. Further people ted to respect some profession more than they do others. It can be said with no doubt that India has produced engineers and doctors throughout the last three decades. Every job is equally respectable. All are dependent on each other. Why not try something new when u are really interested to? Why not? Has India got any innovation in recent? No! No, is the answer. Because, everyone is interested in being manufactured as engineers and earn loads and loads of money….

Still, things can be turned the other way round. So come lets make India a renovated India….Say All is Well, fight back and go for it!!!